I feel like I’m floating. Not going anywhere or really being anywhere. Rather wispy. I don’t see anything around me. I don’t really feel much either. Is this what it feels like to be a cloud?
I don’t know who I am or where I’m going. Or really where I have been. What difference have I made? Does it really matter? All these books on how to do things better I guess it must matter to someone. Should it? Do I need to be better? To do better? Maybe. I guess it depends on why. Is it because it is something I want to do or because it is expected of me? Is one reason better than the other?
If I do it for others then is it good for me or just bragging rights? If I do it for myself will I learn better than if I am doing it for someone else? Potentially. It would matter who that someone else was.
What if I am learning something I don’t want to? What if I am learning just to survive? Is why you learn anymore important than what you learn?
I am learning it is hard to be a cloud, let alone a philosophical one.