Yesterday didn’t necessarily improve but it didn’t get much worse. I am grateful for that. I am also grateful for the good things that happened. Essie came home ok from the vet’s. I was able to pick up my book I ordered (thank you self for thinking ahead and prepaying for the book when you ordered it). The kids were good all day. Despite telling myself I wasn’t going to start reading the book I picked up until I finished one I was reading already, I started. I had to. This was the one Joe Hill book I wanted that night when I met him but they didn’t have. So I did. And I’m glad I did because it is as good as I hoped it would be.
I am making it a point to try to see the good with the bad on bad days. To not let the bad ruin it all for me. Yesterday was the first day I made a conscious effort to do that. I’m not sure if that is a testament to how determined I was or how bad the day was going. Probably both. Oh and I did manage to find my missing password and was able to log in on my Writing.com site.
I am also looking to the future but not too far ahead. If I do that anxiety kicks in and I am trying to keep that to a minimum. If I think about something that stresses me I try to focus on good that may happen instead (like I will have a bunch of fun stories to share after I get back from Thanksgiving and the kids will be fine with no issues). And then I quickly look away from the topic. It may seem dumb to do that but I know if I look too long at a situation that stresses me, even after finding the good, I will start to pick everything apart and undo the good I am trying to accomplish.
Today seems brighter even with the lack of sun. I guess that right there is my secret key. Balance the good and the bad. For every bad thing that happens (or could happen) I try to find a good thing to counter it.
I hope there is atleast one bright spot for you today. Hopefully it is your whole day.
