Emotions

Balancing Acts

Yesterday didn’t necessarily improve but it didn’t get much worse.  I am grateful for that.  I am also grateful for the good things that happened.  Essie came home ok from the vet’s.  I was able to pick up my book I ordered (thank you self for thinking ahead and prepaying for the book when you ordered it).  The kids were good all day.  Despite telling myself I wasn’t going to start reading the book I picked up until I finished one I was reading already, I started.  I had to.  This was the one Joe Hill book I wanted that night when I met him but they didn’t have.  So I did.  And I’m glad I did because it is as good as I hoped it would be.

I am making it  a point to try to see the good with the bad on bad days.  To not let the bad ruin it all for me.  Yesterday was the first day I made a conscious effort to do that.  I’m not sure if that is a testament to how determined I was or how bad the day was going.  Probably both.  Oh and I did manage to find my missing password and was able to log in on my Writing.com site.

I am also looking to the future but not too far ahead.  If I do that anxiety kicks in and I am trying to keep that to a minimum.  If I think about something that stresses me I try to focus on good that may happen instead (like  I will have a bunch of fun stories to share after I get back from Thanksgiving and the kids will be fine with no issues).  And then I quickly look away from the topic.  It may seem dumb to do that but I know if I look too long at a situation that stresses me, even after finding the good, I will start to pick everything apart and undo the good I am trying to accomplish.

Today seems brighter even with the lack of sun.  I guess that right there is my secret key.  Balance the good and the bad.  For every bad thing that happens (or could happen) I try to find a good thing to counter it.

I hope there is atleast one bright spot for you today.  Hopefully it is your whole day.img_5376

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